My mental health is being impacted by my job. I’m on edge daily. When I hear the ping of an instant message I immediately become afraid. Afraid wondering who it is from and afraid wondering if I have some how fallen short again. My anxiety is at an all time high lately and I’ve been needing my as needed Xanax prescription more than ever.

I dread meetings with my manager and his chief of staff.

The chief of staff put a meeting on my calendar at 3p on Monday and I was fearful that I was being fired. Turns out she wanted to discuss my questions about the medical insurance. That meeting could have been an email.

I realize I cannot continue my life in a constant state of fear. My resume has been updated. I will start applying for something else this weekend.

DDC

Lesson: I have to get out.

Question: Will someone else hire me in project management with three months of experience or am I stuck here?